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Theo Marsh has a routine.

Wednesdays. Eight forty-five. Spin class at Holloway's. Back row, third bike from the left. Shower, change, cycle home. Don't stare at the front row. Don't think about the redheaded giant or the blond beside him. Don't think about the way Knox's hand always lands on Sebastian's neck after class, that proprietary squeeze, that easy six-foot-six confidence.

Don't think about what they do when they go home together.

For ten months, Theo has been very good at not thinking about it. Twenty-six years old, an architect, dated women, told himself that what he feels in his chest when Knox laughs is admiration. Professional appreciation. Just an eye for form.

He's been lying to himself since he was fifteen.

And then one rainy October Wednesday, Theo forgets his earbuds. Walks back into the dark, closed gym to fetch them. And on his way out he hears something he shouldn't, somewhere he shouldn't, behind a door that should be locked.

Water running. After hours.

What Theo sees in that amber-lit shower room cracks his life clean down the middle. What he sees Knox do to Sebastian. What he hears. The way Knox opens his eyes mid-act and looks straight at him in the dark corridor and smiles. Slow. Knowing. Like he's been waiting.

Like the door wasn't locked on purpose.

Now Theo can't sleep. Can't work. Can't stop touching himself thinking about that smile, about big freckled hands, about the way Sebastian dropped to his knees on those wet tiles like he was made for it. About what it would feel like to be the one kneeling. To be the one taken.

The trouble is, Knox and Sebastian noticed Theo a long time before Theo noticed them noticing. They've been watching him stare for ten months. They've talked about him. Planned for him. Wedged that shower door open on purpose, knowing exactly which boy was going to walk past it.

And now they want to invite him to the pub.

Then their sofa.

Then their bed.

What follows is twenty weeks of a man being dismantled, lovingly, week by week, by two husbands who know exactly what they're doing. Slow kisses on a sofa with the fire on. A hand on the back of his neck in a crowded pub. Patience that feels like worship. A house on Ravenswood Road with a thick rug in front of the hearth where everything Theo's been hiding from himself for a decade finally gets coaxed, gently, into the light.